11-26-22 A few days ago another senseless act of violence happened in my country and my heart plunged into sadness. That opened the door for all my own personal sadnesses to surface. I believe that is why many people choose to ignore such things and pretend they didn’t happen. It IS difficult to feel difficult emotions. And yet I have found that once I open that door, the door also opens to all my uplifting and regenerative feelings, like joy and gratitude.

The heart is an amazing instrument. It can hold so much more than we think it can and paradoxically it can hold seemingly irreconcilable feelings at the same time. For the past few weeks, since Stew and I returned from our fabulous UK trip, we’ve both been healing physically so we’ve been expressing lots of symptoms, sometimes difficult symptoms. And yet, as I’ve been doing my work, this same work that I’m always telling you about in these sharings and that I teach, I’ve been able to hold the high watch for myself. When I immerse myself in self-inquiry alongside my heart-based tools that keep me connected to my Best Self, my Wise Woman Self, I’m able to be gentle with myself and accepting of what is while still holding the vision of my own wholeness and well-being.

I’m very proud of myself for that…yes, it works when I work it! And I truly believe that staying connected to my heart has been one of the biggest factors in my healing.  When my thoughts are aligned to my core values and belief system, when I choose moment-to-moment remembering and focusing on what I know to be true and thus act from that consciousness, I am no longer interfering with my body’s innate abilities to move towards its natural wholeness and harmony. I can face fear, worry and doubts with love, faith, trust and certainty.

So, the biggest perk to opening my heart is that I have also been residing in deep gratitude and re-connection to my inner joy. A lot of that happened for me in going to the UK in the first place and being with some many wonderful souls (see my last post). Once more, it was that simultaneous holding of heavy and uplifting emotions at the same time. My Gratitude List is overflowing. Thank you Heart for showing me the way once again. Today is a good day...and I make it so!